{"id":118,"date":"2016-01-18T01:21:17","date_gmt":"2016-01-18T10:21:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/?p=118"},"modified":"2016-01-18T01:21:17","modified_gmt":"2016-01-18T10:21:17","slug":"118","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/?p=118","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>you called me<br \/>\n<em>elskan minn<\/em><\/p>\n<p>but I was not yours to claim<br \/>\nand you didn&#8217;t want me anyway<\/p>\n<p>Of course you wanted me<br \/>\nBut I am too terrible to have<br \/>\ntoo terrible to keep around<br \/>\nto keep<br \/>\nto love<br \/>\nwhat great recklessness would that be!<\/p>\n<p>Me, with my great strength<br \/>\nand intelligence<br \/>\nand eyes that see you<br \/>\nand of course<br \/>\nlet&#8217;s not forget I&#8217;m too young<br \/>\nand have far too many children<br \/>\nand am chronically underintoxicated<\/p>\n<p>That would be akin to forgetting<br \/>\nthat you asked me<br \/>\nfor my time<br \/>\nand my heart<br \/>\nand my body<br \/>\nand refused to tell the truth<br \/>\nabout where you were<br \/>\nso I could honestly evaluate my own options<br \/>\nmy own desires<br \/>\nmy own truth<\/p>\n<p>Because the truth is,<br \/>\n<em> \u00feorskurinn minn,<b><br \/>\n<\/b><\/em>you&#8217;re not what I was looking for either<\/p>\n<p>So much older than me<br \/>\nwith a past that I cannot overcome<br \/>\nand cold<br \/>\nso very, very cold<br \/>\nExcept when you&#8217;re not<\/p>\n<p>Well I&#8217;ve done that before<br \/>\nin various forms.<\/p>\n<p>I know you already<br \/>\nand I know I&#8217;d love you<br \/>\nif you&#8217;d let me<\/p>\n<p>But you won&#8217;t<br \/>\nSo, I&#8217;ll dust my hands<br \/>\nand focus on the lovelies that do want me<br \/>\nthat will let me love them<br \/>\nthat have the potential to love \u00a0me back unabashedly<\/p>\n<p>Because that,<br \/>\n<em>konungur minn<\/em>,<br \/>\nis what I am looking for<\/p>\n<p>Unabashed love<br \/>\ndesire<br \/>\nreciproricity<br \/>\nexcitement<br \/>\ngleaming eyes<br \/>\nand crinkly smiles<\/p>\n<p>Making love like you do<br \/>\nexquisite as it is<br \/>\nis not enough<br \/>\nfor me<br \/>\nin spite of what I tell you<br \/>\nin any language<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>you called me elskan minn but I was not yours to claim and you didn&#8217;t want me anyway Of course you wanted me But I am too terrible to have too terrible to keep around to keep to love what great recklessness would that be! Me, with my great strength and intelligence and eyes that [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-118","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/118","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=118"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/118\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":119,"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/118\/revisions\/119"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=118"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=118"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=118"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}