{"id":76,"date":"2015-11-16T12:13:00","date_gmt":"2015-11-16T21:13:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/?p=76"},"modified":"2015-11-16T20:38:15","modified_gmt":"2015-11-17T05:38:15","slug":"the-letting-go","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.dirtfarmchronicles.com\/?p=76","title":{"rendered":"Parting Gifts"},"content":{"rendered":"
\""Hands<\/a>

“Hands Across the Divide” – a sculpture<\/p><\/div>\n

Happy Monday, Jordan.<\/p>\n

I am always surprised by how much living can happen in a week.
\nWhere one can go in mind or heart
\nWhat one can accomplish
\nHow much one can grow or wither.<\/p>\n

Thank you for two evenings of life filled with wonderful memory.
\nI had determined to feel them, experience them, enjoy them
\nAnd I did. You were wonderful.<\/p>\n

So, beautiful man,
\nMan who struggles with compliments
\nAs my parting gift,
\nI wanted to tell you the good things that I see in you.
\nIn no order of importance or value, but all important, all valuable to me<\/p>\n

Gorgeously handsome
\nwith a smile to move mountains and stand against the seas
\nEyes that search out faces for truth
\nHands that feel delicious and divine, full of strength and competence.<\/p>\n

So polite and respectful. It felt
\nridiculously good
\nto be treated with
\ndeference.
\nAnd not just polite about me, but about your parents, your friends.
\nYour regard for the people in your life was very, very evident.<\/p>\n

Kind. So very kind to those you love.
\nWhile I never did Google you,
\nI did check out Facebook.
\nAnd to see how you responded to people and how much
\nthey love you…
\nIt is significant and says so much about your character,
\nthat I wasn\u2019t wrong to think you were something special.<\/p>\n

Concerned.
\nYou were concerned with my comfort,
\nmy intellectual stimulation,
\nmy opinion of you.
\nAll of that, to me, speaks so well, of you.<\/p>\n

Health. You choose to be kind to your body and you pay attention to your health,
\nWith maturity
\nAnd thought.
\nSeriously swoon-worthy.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I could not imagine being bored with you. Your mind and language skills are fantastic.
\nI could have eaten them up in
\nhuge gobbling spoonfuls
\nsplashed through them
\nlike a gleeful child through rain puddles.
\nConversing with you left me so sated.
\nSated\u2026 satisfied\u2026
\nyou\u2019re incredibly satisfying,
\nintellectually.<\/p>\n

You kiss\u2026 oh Jordan, do you kiss.
\nAnd you hold while you kiss.
\nAnd respond with not just your private parts
\nBut your breath
\nAnd arms
\nAnd hands
\nWhat a joy you were to kiss<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

You were responsive.
\nWilling to do things I liked.
\nYou made it safe to ask.
\nSafety for me is a pretty rare thing.
\nYou made it safe to like you openly,
\nwithout reservation.<\/p>\n

Making love
\nI don\u2019t know if I am glad we did that
\nor
\nnot.
\nYou, in me, felt so good.
\nBut maybe I shouldn\u2019t have been so eager for you.
\nI don\u2019t know.<\/p>\n

I know if I had to choose between only having you for two evenings without<\/em> making love
\n0r
\nhaving you for two evenings with<\/em> making love,
\nknowing I\u2019d only get those two experiences with you,
\nI\u2019d choose making love with you every time.<\/p>\n

But if waiting had made a difference,
\nif it had meant more time,
\nI\u2019d have waited.
\nIf I\u2019d had the choice of more time,
\nI\u2019d have chosen that
\nEvery time.<\/p>\n

Jordan,
\nThe point of this isn\u2019t to convince you of my like for\u00a0you
\nI guess it is a little to let you know that I\u2019m not hanging on
\nBut mostly to let you know how really
\nwonderful
\nbeautiful
\namazing
\nI found you to be.<\/p>\n

You talk about not being in your prime
\nBut I\u2019m betting you\u2019re
\nmore man,
\nmore strength,
\nmore character,
\nmore you<\/em> now,
\nthan you\u2019ve ever been in your life.<\/p>\n

Wonderful
\nBeautiful
\nGorgeous
\nFunny
\nAmazing
\nDelicious
\nSatisfying
\nIntriguing
\nDelightful<\/p>\n

Inadequate words to describe such a
\nfull
\ncomplex person.
\nBut it\u2019s what I\u2019ve got.<\/p>\n

When we see each other out and about, let\u2019s be warm and kind.
\nThere are enough awkward enemies in the world and not enough genuine allies.
\nI\u2019ll be your ally.<\/p>\n

Happy Monday, Jordan.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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