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You’d take me in
\nand give me a room of my own
\nand maybe even an entire floor
\nor
\nwing<\/p>\n
You’d pay the bills
\nand be so kind about dinner
\nand the clean sheets
\nbuy an endless hot water heater
\nand install a huge tub<\/p>\n
You’d be so glad that I practiced with the kids
\nand took them to their game club
\nor dance
\nor music
\nor church
\nor friends
\nor ice cream
\nor coffee<\/p>\n
You’d never tell me what to cook for dinner
\nOr complain about rabbit food
\nbut would share the things you like
\nand notice when I did culinary things for you<\/p>\n
You’d play video games with the kids after work
\nor read a chapter from our book
\nor kiss my neck<\/p>\n
You’d let me make a family
\nholding my hand
\ninhaling my hair
\nand smiling at me when you caught my wondering, wandering gaze<\/p>\n
But would you ever feel at home too?
\nSecure and stable with the uncertainty of me?
\nWould my faithless heart stay in exile?
\nor
\nwould it adopt this life you offer
\nWould you love me?
\nOr, would just liking me be enough for you?
\nDoes it have to be love?<\/p>\n
Would you notice the difference in wondering and wandering?<\/p>\n
Would you make love to me
\nuntil my heart was safe
\nor would your service\u00a0merely give scorn a fertile place to grow
\nand would I treat you like an infant
\nanother chore
\na duty<\/p>\n
Could we find that place of tender, compassionate
\ncompanionship
\nthat allows for the ache and angst
\nyawning from my bowels
\nor
\nwould that\u00a0be too lonely for you?<\/p>\n
Could I do it?
\nThis setting aside of myself?
\nCould you live well if you didn’t have all of me?<\/p>\n
I feel so guilty for thinking any of this
\nGuilty that I would even question this when it’s a chance to give my babies a roof
\nand life
\nGuilty for even considering the using of you
\n(but, ironically, not guilty for using myself)
\nGuilty for choosing my breath over that of my kids<\/p>\n
I am so afraid of being bored
\nof trading a material lack
\nfor intellectual lack
\nof trading life
\nfor death
\nof having to tear more bits of me away to make room for the tasks
\nIt makes me simultaneously panic and plan<\/p>\n
You’d buy or build me a house
\non the water
\nwith a view
\nWhere I could have my coffee
\nand silence
\nand words<\/p>\n
You’d make possible the things I cannot do<\/p>\n
What happens to people like me when we choose convention?
\nIs there a different sort of life?
\nI am afraid I will still be alone<\/p>\n
And yet, I am house shopping nonetheless<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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